duno duno duno

Seriously, this tot has been running in my head for the past 2 yrs and 9 months. I shouldnt have dragged it for so long to come to this conclusion. Now, im only being sucked deeper and deeper into the trap. Everytime i will be so sure, so confident, so determined to get out of it once and for all. But as always, i was hoping for miracles. A miracle just to prove that im wrong, so that i can convince myself to have faith. But of course, reality only have shit and no miracles. I duno what i should do now, i duno, i really duno. Can someone help me?

just had a fight with WJ over my job and pay again.
WTF.

wo hui lai le!

Yo hello everybody im back!!
How's everyone?

Happy Belated Birthday to Brother oh!
Heard from YK you went to bintan ar? So good!!

Laopo and laogong must be on the way back from batam too!! WIth u these 2 crazy girls, the trip must be ultra fun!! Too bad i couldnt make it. =( I sooooooo wanna go too! but WJ couldnt go, and he wont let me go without him too.

Im so desprate for a Holiday now then even a cruise is oso fine, genting oso can, even sentosa i oso dun mind lor!!

Anyway these few weeks haven been really busy, but all the past weekends is burned going to family events, birthdays la, man yue etc. But all thanks to that i get to spend plenty of quality time with WJ too. And maybe due to seeing him too much, I event dreamt of him while he is just beside me!! But the dream wasnt good la. In the dream he fell from somewhere high, puked blood and face went black. I tot he was going to die, and was crying even after i woke up. But fell alseep soon after, cos too tired le .... whahaha!

Im Back

Yes yes ... thanks to my dearest Djohan ... now i finally remember that i actually still DO have a blog. Haha.

Since the last post, lots of things had happened. Some good some bad.

To cut the long story short, I graduated from Orita Sinclair and got myself a job at an (really really small) advertising and design company. Struggling there for about 1.5 months to date, and is contemplating the idea of quitting. And lastly, nearly say bye bye to my dearest dear, due to emotions breakdown. (But thank God i didn't!!).

Maybe stress has been taking a toll on me. Dearest dear say i might be having depression. But i hope not. Salary is not even enuff for me to go for consultation, let alone the medication.

something random

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		9
Physical Touch:		8
Acts of Service:		5
Words of Affirmation:		5
Receiving Gifts:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Stupid Video Project

while waiting for my video to render ... let me do a little blogging ...
the thought of doing this video makes my blood boil ... so hope this ranting will let me cool down a bit and continue with the nonsense later through the sleepless night ...
I know im not going to do well for this module lor ...
but ... PLEASE ... I hope ... i pray ... i cross my fingers ... i touch all the wood around me ... i kneel down and beg ... PLEASE ... dun let me fail this module!
I dun mind getting a bad grade ... as long as i dun have to go through this shitty work again ...
Jass has got all my admiration for her patience of doing her video again and again for so many times ... *salute*
But for me ... one time is enuff to kill ...
So please! just let me get a pass! ... hack about all those grades la ...
Damn ... the rendering is done ... ARGH!

*Back to work*

tuan yuan

SORRY ELAINE FOR BEING UNABLE TO STAY AT YOUR BIRTHDAY PARTY!
but im sure you guys sure had fun anyway right?! *hehe*

Sorry YK ... Sorry Elaine ... for being such a lousy friend ... always missing at the wrong time ... and especially during special moments like this!! Zhi shi yi chi ... xia bu wei li ok??

yes yes YK .. i owe you ur sashimi ... ur hug ... hahaha ... repay you next time hor ... hehe

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Woot! went to wj house for tuan yuan fan today ... very very early tuan yuan fan!!! cos his brother and family is going to Australia next week ... so must eat before they go abroad. Frankly speaking this is the first time i go his house eat tuan yuan fan le! although this is gonna be the third CNY we are spending together. There isnt any shan zhen hai wei but this is one of the best meals that i had for a very long time. makes me feels like part of the family *heart swell*. Like i always say, things can always change. we might be like this for now, but who knows what will happen next. so for that moment, im just glad to be there, to be invited and be part of them. =)

new year is coming!

just came back from chinatown with Mr Chin ...
Despite carrying a huge bag and jostleing with the crowd, i really like the atmostphere there!
All the new year songs and decoration pieces on sales just make it seems that new year is not 2 weeks away but now!

I so want CNY to come now! but before that ... shopping for clothes first!







bought a bag for mummy and THIS!





Guess what's that?

Its actually a doll with soil and seed!
So im gonna water it later and wait for his "hair" to grow ... haha!

busy busy busy

was actually doing my flash portfolio ...
but apparently im distracted easily ...
so here i am!

been really busy since last thursday ...
running around borrowing eqiupement for video shoot ...
then doing the actual shooting at my house ...

then running around again to get program for editting and stuff ...
i tell you ... filming is really tough work man!
hope grada dun reject my work! *cross fingers*

my daddy! sacrifcing image for my work ... *gan dong*

touching up ...

the hassle of shooting ...

jie jie is like the professional make up artist ... haha

And thank you everyone for helping me with this project. especially baobei weishan! thank you for running around with me hor ... without you i will really die ... muackz! love you! haha

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Then on saturday, went to my laogong JieLun's concert. Surprisingly i wasnt really in the mood to go due to all the heavy work!! But is my laogong's concert le ... how can i dun go ... later he sad how ... haha!

there's this big gong zai of him outside the stadium. i wanna bring it home!

look at the crowd! it looks even better with the lights off and glowing lightsticks.

I Love Jay hands provided by starhub

Kexin with her zai pai dong zuo!

pretty da jie weilih!

me and my jay!


cam whoring before the concert starts ...


Presenting: THE-MOST-UNGENTLEMENT-AND-SICKING-GUY-WHO-NEARLY-SPOILS-OUR-DAY!

Yah! This idiotic guy who tried getting into our picture here, requested us to stick our butts onto our seats during the show. Simply because he tot he was watching some classic music concert and that everyone else jumping and cheering along in the indoor stadium is uncivilised and rude. HELLO! this is a concert lor ... if u want to just sit and watch, then go buy his DVD, kiao ka and watch at home la!

Luckily our mood is not really affected by him. Jay really got us jumping and screaming like siao kias by the middle of the show. I love his live "yang guang zia nan"! SUPER HIGH! He even got down the stage to shake hands with the fans ... too bad we sat too far away! *cries*

Didnt get my camera that day, so heres some pictures from my niece's blog and some with the courtesy of http://biaos.blogspot.com/ (thanks for the wonderful pictures!) who went to the concert on fri. Btw those who went on sat (like me) got to see his Ah Ma dancing ... she is so cute lor! haha.

before the show starts

kick start the show with huang jing jia (which me and ke xin tot all along is huo yuan jia! laogong wo duo bu qi ni!)

some girls touching him all over while he sings yue qu. no link with the song -_-


jay singing shuang jie gun in a new slow and catchy melody. really nice!

Chow Yun Fatt in "Ting ma ma de hua" Video

zombie dance! his dancing really improve a lot lor ... shuai!

che ling with style ... shuai!

singing qian li zhi wai ...


playing fai ru xue ... shuai!


some lucky guy got to dance with one of the sexy dancers who went off stage...

Nan quan ma ma is the guest of the night ...



my fav segment!! Seeing him playing on the piano is so charming!

Overall, the concert is great! the only disappointing part is the lack of time. The concert seems short even when its 2.5 hours. And he missed out a lot of classic songs like "shan hu hai", "feng", "wo bu pai" etc ... oh cant wait for him to come here for another concert again ... next time must get the most expensive seats!

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Another important event happened during the weekend. A special day for a special someone. My little baby niece came into the world on Jan 20 2008!

presnting *ta ta*: BABY JENITH!

sleeping so soundly ...

So small!

Dont she look cute! when this picture is taken she is bearly 9 hours old! She look just like Persias, her elder brother when he was young. My sister is so blessed to have 3 beautiful and healthy kids. Thankfully because of her, she makes me a xiao yee for the 6th time! yeah! now got one more baby for me to play already! wahahaha

Ya and because of her sudden arrivial, I couldnt make it for YK's Bd celebration dinner. Sorry Brother! owe you one ok!