my heartbeat is racing ...
my thoughts are overloaded ...
im looking hard at the menu trying to avoid a conversation ...
*shit* the waitress came and took away the menu ...
smile sweetly at you sitting across the table ...
avoid eye contact ...
started talking abt the weather, the pple at the next table, the pictures on the tablecloth ...
and slowly *silence*
look around again ...
praying for the food to come ...
brainstorming to strike another conversation ...
took a quick glance at you ...
all of a sudden, i feel so far away from you ...
we seems to be so near, and yet so far apart …
is it me? Or you? Or us?
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
i dun like this feeling
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Happi Happi Times!
Happi Happi Times!
Torture time!! wahaha! look at his wu gu face. wahaha. I have to actually hold and grab him to take a picture with me! he really hated to take pictures with me so much!!
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007
V DAY
Yeah! Tomorrow is Valentine's day! Well actually I'm not really anticipating or expecting anything la. To me its just another day. But just to join in the mood ma. Haha. For my whole life till now, I have actually only celebrated V day once. And its like ... hmm ... OMG! 8 yrs le! (Ok la ... I'm not very popular with guys i know. Haha) But its ok ... At least i get to spend V day with my sisters for the rest of the time. SISTERHOOD ROX! BEANIE GANG ROX! Too bad we have to miss spending V day together this year. But its ok, cos we made it up with a friendship day. hehe.
Posted by cirnelle at 11:33 PM 0 comments
Sunday, February 04, 2007
silly me
I have nv shed so much tears for a guy in my life before!!! And its not like he did anything wrong or he was bad to me. Frankly speaking, he is even gd. Dun understand it myself too. Maybe im having depression or what. Scary. Or im not suitable to be in a r/s, cause i worry too much le.
Posted by cirnelle at 11:17 PM 0 comments
Saturday, February 03, 2007
i REALLY wanna be HAPPY!
i wanna be happy ... i REALLY wanna be HAPPY! but why am i making things difficult for myself? why am i making myself suffer in misery when all i need to do is just don't think so much, worry so much and look on the bright side of things. To make things worst, i cause misery in people around me too. I don't want to be so complex, i wanna be simple ... as simple as possible.
Posted by cirnelle at 7:48 PM 0 comments
Thursday, February 01, 2007
tired ... mentally ...
Posted by cirnelle at 11:54 PM 0 comments