i dun like this feeling

my heartbeat is racing ...

my thoughts are overloaded ...

im looking hard at the menu trying to avoid a conversation ...

*shit* the waitress came and took away the menu ...

smile sweetly at you sitting across the table ...

avoid eye contact ...

started talking abt the weather, the pple at the next table, the pictures on the tablecloth ...

and slowly *silence*

look around again ...

praying for the food to come ...

brainstorming to strike another conversation ...

took a quick glance at you ...



all of a sudden, i feel so far away from you ...
we seems to be so near, and yet so far apart …



is it me? Or you? Or us?