imm and reg jap 2

woke up early in the morning to collect my Taiwan spree clothes which took 3 months to come ... OMG! And another spree in May is still one the way. Taiwan spree always take so long to come lor ... Im so not going to order again ... arrgghh ...

After collecting the stuff, me and Jass went IMM's esprit outlet cos she wanna check out some belt. The things there are really much cheaper than other stores cos they sell mostly out of season clothing. But to me they still look relatively in fashion, so who ever interested can go check it out. Initially, I wanted to buy a white leather bag. The retail price was $89.90, but now its only selling at $49.90. So Im like super tempted lor! but Jass say its not nice, so in the end I only bought a belt with her, which cost only $6.90. Not a bad deal too! haha ...

In the evening, I met up with Weixiang to sign up for our Japanese elementary 2 class and after that had dinner with him and Harvey didi. We had Pepper lunch!! My favourite and WJ's hated food. Lucky he is not with us, if not i sure cant eat. Hahaha.

We were chatting about work and studies. WX's going to start school in NTU soon and Didi thinking about changing his course in NTU after he ORD from army. Then stories about success friends or schoolmates of theirs started pouring in.

"1 friend's internship pay is $1200 la.", "Another one was headhunted by a company and his starting pay is $4,500.", "1 pretty friend of WX is studying XXX science in NTU." blah blah blah ... And sitting beside me is 2 potential NTU engineering graduates ...

Suddenly I feel so small ... small ... small ...

yah ... So what if i am also a mass communication graduate ... my cert is just a piece of shit to me ... the best way to put it I bought it back with just $22K. Where do I stand among all these intelligent and young people with a bright future? Where Can I Stand??

Im not smart, my studies sucks, my designer's path is still just a dream, im not confident, im not outspoken, Im not good at anything and basically im just a good for nothing. If im pretty then ok la, maybe I can do some bimbotic job, but the worst is im not even up for that. And to think of that some people can even be pretty and smart at the same time *envy*

How can thay do that? Are they just born intelligent? Or do they work smart? How can they cope studies and life? Im just curious. yah I tried too but too no avil. I have learnt that hardwork does not equal result. No matter what i do, how hard i try, nothings seems to come out good. Maybe Im just not smart like what WJ says.

Hearing about people getting $5k a month is like a dream to me. When can i achieve that? 30 years time? Not even sure whether i can get a bloody job after I graduate from OS. How can i support my parents in the furture? Hai ... Im feeling so depress ... *cry*