communication problem

haven been seeing bi very much these few weeks ... but somehow rather than having tons to talk to each other due to the lack of meeting up, it seems that our conversation is getting more and more dry.

the topics we talked about everyday are always the same. And sometimes im just so tired that i dont feel like talking.

Of course i misses him and wants to see him as often as possible. But when communication comes into place I just wanna avoid it as much as i can.

just like what larlin wrote in her blog, communication is so vital in a r/s.

but y is it yet the most difficult le? hmmm ... *tired*

Ocean 13 sleep sleep

watched ocean 13 with xiao bi and maisy maisy mouse just now ...

was soooo tired ... that i fell asleep ... haha

after a gd long 15 mins, then realized that i cannot waste my money!!!

so i had to force my eyes open and just managed to caught the climax of the movie ... *phew*

these few days too many homework to do le la ... always not enuff time to sleep ...

then before that still went to do a game event at square 2 for m&m ...

not enuff sleep still have to run ... *peng* ... haha ... lucky me still fit enuff ... hehe

Ocean 13 is really funny ... Must watch!! but if wanna compare, i still think Ocean 11 is better ... smarter plot ... =)

lose mahjong big time

just came home from a mahjong session from Mr Tony Chan's place.

It either my mahjong skills really sux or my luck is really down.

Cause for the past few hours, i won only a few times and the only time i win is those small small tais. And every time i have those big tais somebody else is bound to win!

arrgghhh ...

So anybody who wants to earn some extra money or have the kick of winning on the mahjong table ... feel free to find me! Im sure i can make you very happy ... haha ... arrrggghhh ....

random

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Your Birthdate: October 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

unhappy

im not happy le ...

you know that kind of feeling whereby everything seems to go wrong ...

when laughter is hollow ...

smile is fake ...

mind is elsewhere ...

heart is cold ...

no idea when this mood suddenly creeps in ...

maybe its the time of the month again? haha

maybe its nearing Aug and the insecurity is coming back again?

maybe oh maybe ...

im just unhappy ... *sulks*

pink toy! thx baby!

I was out with ning, eve and baobei during the day, while bb went for his usual soccer match. After the soccer, he called and said that he will be going out with his "laopo" yaosheng. So i said ok lor and didnt think twice about it.

Later when he is about to go home, he called again and said he bought presents for our "babies". (well ... babies are actually our 2 soft toys - bear & froggy - that he got for me). I was really surprised cause he wont usually buy things for me without occasion, so i immeaditely imagined it to be something really cute and small for the "babies" that he just bought for fun. But no matter how i question him, he just dont wanna tell me what is it.

So after that he came and fetched me home. Throughout the bus journey, i kept bombarding him with questions. Like, "how big is it", "how much", "what is it made of", "what is the use of it", etc ... "is it socks", "is it a hat", "is it shoes", but he keep saying no until i gave up.

Then there is this person sitting in front with a mp4 player watching a show, so i casually ask him to see. I said that the player seems very good. can watch movie and the screen is very big. Then he ask what is the difference between this player and the one i showed him on the magzine yesterday. I said its about the same, but this one is bigger and that one i showed him is a bit small to watch movie. All of a sudden, he become very agitated and keep asking why i dont like the smaller one already. After seeing his reaction, then it came to me that the present he kept talking about is THIS!!

OMG!! I really didn expect him to buy this! Cos i was only casuslly mentioning it to him yesterday that i saw it at the IT fair and was considering to buy. But the price is quite steep so i really couldnt afford it. And to my surprise, he went down to the IT fair and bought it for me today! Im so touched!! He actually remembered and take noticed of everything i said and is willing to spent so much on me while being stingy to himself! yet i still complain about him for forgetting my words sometimes. *my bad this time*

And this is our new toy! I love pink!

$399 for this tiny thingy! But a ear phone is missing from the package and bb is not too happy about it. Need to call and check with the dealer tomorrow!

It can play mp3, video and pictures on it and i love it too bits! Thank You BABY!! *muackz! muackz* No, its not too small for video. Its just the right size and i can watch it while doing gym next time. And i will put a lot a lot of your pictures in it too! Dont worry k ... i really love it a lot!! This month you will have a scrap and save again, xin ku ni le! we shall be more thrifty for the next few months k??

A bonus kiss for you: *MUACKzzzzzzzzzzz* =)

miss universe 2007

Miss Korea is so pretty!! Its such a pity that she didn't win the crown. Maybe it's because of the answer & question? To have a wallet that doesn't dries up ... hmm tt really sounds a bit lame. Anyway ... i was still very mesmerised by her! She is the prettiest one i find so far. Much better than Miss Japan ... i think ...

Miss Japan wasn't that bad too, but then she was just so-so to me. And just like what my baobei gf says, she walks funny! like very jumpy and a bit hiao, with her hips swinging her and there ... haha ... hmm not very impressed by her ... till thinks that my Miss Korea is better ... haha

And as usual, our Miss Singapore just didn't make the mark again. As compared to the past Miss Singapore, i think that she is one of the better ones. Pretty and intelligent. The others were just either pretty w/o brains or brains w/o looks. Its just a pity that she wasn't outstanding enough.

Hmm ... and one more ... im just a bit curious ... how did she get there?? *scratch head* there are bound to be tons of babe in Malaysia ... but why her?

me & baby

When we were returning to his house after soccer just now, he suddenly laughed and said," you seems to be following me everywhere these few days hor... haha"

Then i think ... "eh ya hor ..."

Cos yesterday after class, i went to his place first before we meet his friends to play lan. After playing for a few hours, we went to his friend's place to play poker. Then he fetch me home and stayed over. Next morning, he send me to school. Initially im suppose to meet him after class, but who know there is actually no class today! *@#$^&*%#* Anyway, since its too far to go home, so i went to his house to take a nap first before his soccer match. After the match, we went for dinner and he send me home again. So now he is sleeping like a pig at the moment. Tomorrow we are going to have lunch with his family.

wah ... come to think of it we are seeing each other for like 3 days straight le! lucky we are not sick of each other yet (for him i duno la ... haha) but its quite fun though ... hehe

funny da jie

this happen 2 days ago ...
i was reading hoiling's blog and my da jie entered the room ...

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da jie: girl ... what are you doing? oh is that your blog?

me: no la ... my friend's de ...

da jie: no meh? (pointing to hoiling's photo)

me: no ... is my friend's picture la!! (trying to scroll the page down)

da jie: eh wait! i wanna see! its you what! but how come the picture is so distored??

me: (-_-) *sweat*

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wahahaha ... this is the joke of the year man ...

enjoying my lesson

was sitting in class today listening to the lecturer speaking ...

all of a sudden, there is this sense of joy in me ...

cause at that moment, i realized that im actually enjoying myself!

i was so immersed in the topic that it doesn't even feel like im having a lesson ...

everything is so interesting and fun!

never in my life have i ever felt that way in any lesson ...

in the past, everything is sure a chore ...

but now its different ...

im so glad that i took up this course ...

i have finally found what i really like ...

*hope this feeling will last!! script writting class is coming up. Shit! how i hate writting!!

naughty baby insomia

humph!

wanted to praise him for being so swweeeet yesterday for fetching me home from jap class de.

then today he refused to sing a lullaby to make me sleep after he promised to! blah! naughty boy!

im having insomnia recently ...

cant even sleep though im really tried ...

yesterday was even worsen ... i lie on bed from 1 a.m. to 5 a.m.!

can anyone gimme some suggestion to have a gd slp??

first day of sch!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!

First lesson: Video Editing

Sounds fun rite? initially i tot so too ... but its actually the theory part! so its all about the techincal specs of the video, audio and so on ... Boring! And with the lack of sleep from these few days, I was doozing off 3/4 of the time during the 3 hours lecture ... duno what the hack the teacher was talking about all along ... =P

gonna go through another 3 more hours of class tml ... lesson is : Drawing ... well hope its not as boring as today lor!

jap class

my laptop no sound le ... duno what happen ...
just bought it a few months ago ... now so fast spoil le ...
so sad!!

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went for my first jap class yesterday!
it was so fun!
in the beginning of the class, im still able to understand ...
but after 2 hours ... everything is in a mess!
so many things to learn and remember ...
me really old liao ... brain cannot take it le ...
haha

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next mon going to start school le ...
bit scared ... bit excited ...
duno what to expect ...

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that woman is mad ...
i saw her throw tantrum just now ...
throwing her shoes, screaming vulgarity and hitting herself ...
im so afraid that she will hit my sis ...
poor sis ... always tolerating this ... never had a break ... how long will this last??

Fatal Frame 3

Played Fatal Frame 3 with Poland kor yesterday...

BIG REGRET!!

I had to sleep with the lights on cos the images of female ghosts standing in the shadow keeps running in my mind!

Im really not a horror movie person. Though I did watched quite a number of horror movies like The Ring, Ju-On, The maid blah blah ... but its nv on my own accord. It will either be im forced to accompany someone, or i lost in a bet , or persude by others ... I dun understand y would anyone pay money to be scared and have nightmares at night! ok ok ... i guess most pple are not as timid and as lan as me la ... haha

Still remebered that time when we went into the old changi hosiptal with brother and gang, duno who's smart idea lor. I nearly died of heart attack on the spot! So scary ... Next time if there are anymore night outings with them ar must be very careful ... they like to bring us to haunted places de ... duno got what motives .... wahahaha!

Anyway, i will leave the game unplayed for now and wait til Poland kor free to come play with me again ... haha

Tagged Game!

The newest blogging game.I think it's cool & nice la. Must read, & played !!TAGGED !!
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This is what you are supposed to do. Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog. Here goes..

Weird things

1) I like to wear ... as little as possible when i go to bed ... else i will have difficulty falling asleep!!

2) When i enter the toilet, i must check the lock at least 3 times that its defiantly locked, before i will proceed to use the toilet or bath. *locked? sure its locked? ok it locked!*

3) I will never never cut my nails after the sun have set. My mom says by doing that people will dislike or hate you. *well ... i believe a lot in what my mom says ... hehe*

4) When i learnt that a guy is born in the year of either the goat, horse or rabbit, I will immediately lost interest in them. Cos these zodiac clashes with mine. On the other hand, I really likes guys who are born in the year of cow, snake and dragon. Hehe. *Alright! I know im being ridiculously superstitious!*

5) I will always avoid looking at any wake held under the HDB void deck, cos i believe once i looked at them i will have bad luck for the rest of the day. *ok ok ... im really a superstitious freak*

6) I believe that there is no forever love and no loyal & trustworthy guy in the world, wanted to be single forever but yet craves for love when im single. *nought said ... think this applies to most girls*

Weird huh?

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People I tagged1) Djohan 2) Lailin 3) Weishan 4) Ke Xin

Good bye Po Po

jus came home from wj's grandma's wake.
Po Po passed away this morning in her sleep.
His dad called and broke the news to us in the morning.
We were both super shocked, cos 2 weeks ago we just celebrated her 83th birthday and she was still able to walk around and everything seems fine.
But now, she is gone ...
well ... who could have thought ...

Though we have only met for 6 - 7 times, but i have really grown to like her.
She is always so sweet. Keep asking me to eat more, eat more. Always talking to me (in Cantonese), which i totally dun understand a bit!! When i nod in response, she thought i understood her words, and she will continue to talk even more! Haha

She is such a nice old lady, i really really hope she is in heaven now( with my aunt), and will bless her family, her kids, her grandchildren, who really loves her a lot ...

2 funerals within 1 month ...
life is really short ...
life is really unpredictable ...
who knows what might happen the next day, next hour, next min, next sec ...
lets not waste anymore time k ...
please tell your love ones how much you care for them before time runs out ...

Here goes ... To my family, my boyfriend, my friends ... I love you guys (LOTS) !!! =)

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jus now at the funeral, i suddenly realized something. Did you guys ever wonder why Chinese funeral are always held for so many day? like 3, 5 or 7 days? Is it really because of religion and ritual purposes? In remembrance of the deceased? Anyway, whatever the case it is, Im really glad that the Chinese have this culture. Though when a person dies, and the family grieves at the lost of a love one, but on the other hand during the wake, relatives and friends from lala land whom you have never been in contact for ages will definitely suddenly appear! And at the wake, most of the family members will there to help out and through that, there are actually a lot of communication going on, and in turn they might also grow closer. It's somehow like the deceased last attempt to do something for the family - which is to make the family stronger ... Isnt that so?

Happy Birthday baby chin!

yeah guys thanks for all that suaning! better dun let me catch u drunk hor! haha ... btw laopo and brother ... u know how much i love you guys right? so ... can delete the video?? *plea* Hehe

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Happy Birthday Monster Chin!!

Yeah you finally turn 22 le! But how come u are still like a little boy boy in my eyes huh? *Im such a paedophile ... eek*

He took a day off camp today and came to my house in the noon. Then we went cathay to watch spider man 3. initially wanted to watch at the 4D max theatre but it was down, so bo bian only have to watch the normal one. Btw hor, what exactly is the 4D max thingy huh? what is the diff? Is it when there is water scene, water will splash out literally? wahaha

After that, we went to Shangri-la Hotel, for a buffet at The Line. Omg! The food there is so nice! especially the dessert, seafood, sashimi, tim sum ... ok ok ... everything is nice! though its a bit ex la ... but its really worth the price. We ate from 7-10, and 3 hours later (tts now) im still feeling super full and bloated! He says im paying money to make my self suffer ... haha ... how true ...

but its been a really long time since we have enjoyed ourself so much. And im so glad that he is so happy today ... hehe ... Ni kuai le deng yu wo kuai le! Hope wo men nian nian you jing ri oh! love ya babe!

In the bus on the way to catch spiderman!!

Sashimi! Sashimi!

Comon! Big Prawns!

The Beginning & The End

Me and me baby ...

misc pic

As per the request for Mr Tan Yun Xiang .... CURLY HAIR PHOTOS! *dun you dare call me auntie ... aarragghh!*

Some recent photos taken with Monster Chin. He is still quite upset with me for taking up the course. even saying that he will be utterly disappointed in me if i fail to do well. Haiz ... y must you be so harsh to me?? cant you just give me a bit of support?? *heartache* Im so afraid that we will start to drift apart when both of our sch terms start ... haiz ...

Anyway on the happier note, after months of savings ... i finally rewarded my self with some shopping! hehe

A tee from wetseal ... just love it ... its so cute and cheery! *look at the sun!*

NORMAL CLOTHES minus ugly model minus messy backdrop minus bad photo angle = GREAT CLOTHES

drunk at zouk!

STUPID LONG ISLAND TEA!! I'm so going to quit drinking for a while! *hmm on second tot ... maybe not ... haha*

Went zouk last Friday with ning, eve, chuan lei and her boss. It was actually an invitation for a Motorola event to showcase some fashion pieces with cat walk and stuff ... but it was really boring!!! So we were basically just standing around, gossiping, making remarks about the models and dunking down gulps of alcohol unknowingly. Btw the time i can feel it, im already a bit seh. but not too bad la, i still can walk and make conversation.

*side story* chuan lei just changed company and is now working for AsiaSoft!! the company that created audition, maple story etc, for those who plays online games. How cool!! and her work these few days are just to play online games all day long ... yet she is still complaining of boredom! i think so many pple are dying to get her job. Haha.

Anyway, after staying a while we decided to leave the place (didnt even stepped on the dance floor!). And we headed for supper. Then ... the NIGHTMARE begins!

Guys ... remember that time at tzx place when yk puked all over the floor after the drinking session?? well ... i was just a teeny weeny better than that ... *shy* hehe

First, i puked in the taxi (lucky got plastic bag), then i puked again in my toilet, lie down and slp on the toilet floor, woke up puke again, lie down slp, woke up again ( feeling better) and crawl into my bedroom. Literally crawl! then i slept on the floor til morning. At that moment i swear to myself not to drink again! (does that sounds familiar to u brother??) Wahaha

Anyway here are some of the pictures we took that day!



GROUP HUG!! ning, me, chuan lei and eve!




chipmunk angie & sexy eve ...




pretty pretty ning ... my ou xiang!! she look like ezann lee doesnt she? *ning ning ... dun kill me if u see tis hor*

good bye da gu

IN MEMORY OF THNG MEOW IMM
10-10-1948 to 24-04-2007

my da gu passed away last tues. it came as a big blow to all of us. she had been suffering from cancer for the past three years. went in and out of the hospital for umpteen times, but who would have known that this will be her last. during my last visit 2 weeks ago, she was still able to laugh and talk like usual. i tot she will recover, guess i was just too naive. she had been a really good wife, mum, daughter, sister and aunt to all of us. we are all missing her badly, especially ah ma. first losing ah gong and now her eldest daughter. hope da gu is in heaven now with no pain and suffering anymore. God bless. we love you.

life is too short, time is too precious