the bf has been really sweet recently ...
he volunteered to help me do my work when I have to rush things through the night though he has class the next day ...
he pei me go library when he has to carry 6 heavy hard cover design books and giving me the lighter ones ...
he pei me walk around supermarkets to find stuff for school work ...
he cooks for me when im busy doing work ...
he gives me advise and edit my work when i need help ...
he listens to me nag about all the unhappiness at school and makes me laugh ...
he spends 15 mins walking to and fro just to order food from a single stall, cos all the food i wanted is sold out ...
he pei me go home afraid that im being lonely ...
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y u suddenly so sweet ar? or u have always been like that only that i didnt notice? anyway cant praise you too much ... later u will have swollen head, head become big and fly away ... hahaha
just wanna say ... thanks for loving me so much wor ... you just make me wanna love you more ... *muacks*
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
the sweetest thing in life
Friday, October 19, 2007
sleepy ...
didnt go to school again today. woke up at 11 when my class starts at 10. how bad can that be? was actually supposed to have woken up at 9 after messaging jass, but somehow i fell asleep again. By the time i woke up its just too late. Today was Rhoda's last day for class, and we were supposed to go and take a picture with her. Im sorry!
duno why im so tired recently. always seems to be lack of sleep. yawning at every 1/2 a second. I seriously need a morphine jab. anyone has lobang? haha. just kidding.
hmm have to re-do my packaging homework. sux. duno what to do now le. tml must show some progress liao. but now still stuck at what product to do! arrggh ...
tml going to meet peiqin baobei le!! yeah ... so long nv see her liao. duno what's going on in her life right now. definitely better than mine lor ... for sure. was discussing with her and MS where to meet tml via sms, then duno what happen MS suddenly got angry and say she dun wanna meet anymore. baobei say maybe is she made her angry. so i msg MS a few time ask her to calm down but she didn't reply all. throwing her da xiao jie pi qi again. hai. nu ren xing hai di zhen. really very hard to understand sia.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Sick again
Cute cute laogong and jiawen
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Happy October
First and foremost, Happy Birthday to all the October Babies!
Mr Chin and Me
Bean Sisters (missing weilih)
Woodland gang
Saturday, September 22, 2007
stomach flu virus!!
Sick Sick Sick! This whole week should have been a time to rest and take a break from the heavy load of homework. But who would have guessed that i will fall sick on the first day of school break! Such a sickening luck.
But sadly, its not only me who was down with the virus. Jassine and Alicia were caught by it too. Yah so basically we spent most of the time at home rather than going to school and finishing up our remaining work.
This whole homework shit has really taken a toll on me. The stress, the deadline, the impossible task, the never ending work, the lack of sleep. I duno where to start to finish all this mess. And the best part is i dun really have anyone to talk to.
My mom? no. she will never understands and I dun wanna make her worry too. WJ? no. He will start to chide me about joining the course, wasting money and get so worked up that at the end of the day I will be the one trying to pacify him. Telling him that i love this stuff so much and im enjoying every moment in this.
guess ... im just too weak. The rest of the people are doing fine except me. maybe im just not cut for it.
I dun feel like going out these days. Just wanna stay at home, lie on my bed and daze. I dun wanna think. dun wanna talk to anybody. dun wanna eat. dun wanna drink. just wanna rot.
but school is starting soon. still must walk out of that door. still must face reality. still must finish all those shit. still must prove that im not that useless anyway.
is there a light at the end of the tunnel for me?
Saturday, September 08, 2007
mummy and daddy home!
oh mummy and daddy is finally home! miss them a lot sia! just so glad that they are home safe and sound =)
having lesson with swee lye tml and we need to show him our logo process ... but right now my mind is still blank ...
duno what to draw ... seriously duno ...
i just stare at the paper and think ... 10 mins ... 20 mins ... 30 mins ... just passed by and all my sketches are like shit ... not a single one i like ...
my brain is dead ... just cant think any more ...
duno what to do ...
so feel like giving up ...
so feel like jumping down from a building ...
getting knock down by a car ...
someone shoot me in the brain ...
then i dun have to think anymore ...
Friday, September 07, 2007
uncle seng ... hurry wake up ...
Hi,
Some updates of my brother who fainted at work last wednesday.
Just got back after speaking to the doctor. His condition is now stablised. Heart Rate at 74 and Blood Pressure at 135. Still on the high side, but has improves a lot. However, he's still in coma and the doctor is unable to estimate how long more he will be in this state (maybe weeks, maybe months or even years)
Currently, he's able to breathe with the help of some supply of oxgen. Eventually, they will try to get him out of the supply of oxygen to see if he can breathe all by himself. If condition improves, they can then close up the hole that leads directly to the windpipe. Else, he will have to stay on in this condition for life.
Next problem is he is now confirmed to have a major stroke. His blood clot is getting better but as it's at the brain stem, even if he wakes up, he will need a lot of family support for his daily chores (may have to stay at nursing home if there's no one to take care of him full time). So, will have to look into how to get his daily life on...but most important thing is still - he has to get out from his coma.
Will still have to pray very hard.
Regards,
Amy
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got this email from my aunt today ...
didnt know that my uncle's condition is so bad ...
hope he get well soon ...
Thursday, September 06, 2007
sunny sunny!
this layout very boring meh?? dont u think the sun is so cheery and cute? see already oso very happy what ... wei shan u no taste le ... whahahaha ... k la k la ... see i finally blog ... because of u le ... gan dong ma ... haha
Nothing happen recently so i didnt blog lor ... because basically this few weeks are just homework, homework and more HOMEWORK! Im up to my neck already ... and so is all my other classmates ... work just keep piling and piling ... like a sewage pipe that burst ... all the shit just keep on coming ...
oh yah ... something did happen ... i accidently squashed a lizard and the poor fellow was flattened on my bedroom door ... jassine must be sick of the story by now ... hahaha ... but its really gross lor ... i really hate lizards sia ... i would rather have millions of crocraches crawl over me than one liazrd touch me! *silvers*
my mom and dad went China last week ... my uncle had a stroke and is in coma for 1 week already ... seems quite serious but my grandma wont let us tell my parents ... hopefully by the time they come back he would have woken up already ...
take care of urself peeps ...
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
how to coax your gf
HOW TO COAX UR GF.
1. NEVER LEAVE HER ALONE TO COOL DOWN, even if she tells you to go away or does not want to say anything. 95% of girls hate that. They like to pout and sulk and ignore you while you keep trying to cajole. Keep doing that. It may take 5min for one girl... or 10hrs for another.... before she cools down.
2. BE SINCERE. If you are trying to apologize, then be sincere about being sorry. Girls can't stand guys who say sorry but then when they find out more try to push the blame back to the girl, or take the girl's reasons lightly.
3. After you have done 1, she would have decided to stop her cold war with you, and she would open her heart again and tell you EVERYTHING she feels, and why. LISTEN ATTENTIVELY. DO NOT INTERRUPT except to clarify. When she is done, and appears to feel better that she's given you a piece of her mind, THEN you may try to explain your side of the story patiently and contritely.
4. Never make her feel that her anger is unjustified EVEN IF YOU BELIEVE YOU HAVE DONE NO WRONG. Show her that you understand how she feels and that you promise you will try to be more sensitive and not be so stupid in the future.If you have done 1-4 well, she would have forgiven you by now. However, her mood may still be bad because of the whole episode. NOW you can start cracking silly jokes to cheer her up or do anything silly/funny/romantic/sweet/touching. To do the cheering up BEFORE step 1-4 is just suicide ok. She will be even more angry to find that you have the mood to clown around when she's so upset about something else.
** Its so damn true lor ... all guys should memorise this by heart ... but i doubt ever will somebody do that ... cos guys just dun get!!!!
** Stolen this piece from Laopo's blog. Hehe ... *peace*
Monday, July 30, 2007
he didnt ... so eventually i did ...
its an agonizing day for me ...
something happened ...
unhappiness and disappointment manifested due to my stubbornness and brainless act ...
pieces and pieces of my heart was eaten up till I couldn't take any more ...
without the heart ... what is the use of pride?
So I decided to take the first step to stop the pain ...
praying hard that this is the correct move to take ...
the result wasn't what i expected ... but still, it wasn't that bad ...
it felt like the pain after popping a pain killer ...
its still there but it doesn't hurt so much that you feel like dying anymore ...
sometimes I just love myself for being such a wimp ...
such a coward ... such a loser ...
If the world is full of winners and people who wont give in, without people like me how can there be peace?
ya ... i know ... i am just consoling myself ... cheers ...
Friday, July 27, 2007
Baby Ally Whatever
Saw this clip from my cousin's blog ...
This little girl is super cute and funny!
WHATEVER!
chivas
Just came back from Van's house after a drinking session with the remaining bottle of Chivas kept at YK's house. It been a long time since we had our last drinking session at the hotel during Laopo's birthday last year. Almost a year le! We used to have fun like this frequently in the past until some stuff happened and everything died down.
But nevertheless, everytime we have a outing it is still as fun as before. All the same crap, lame jokes and teasing. All so old already but still act like kids. Hahaha ... okok i know u all surly wanna say im the only oldest right? fine lor ...
So when are we meeting again ar?
Who is the most free one?
Organise another outing k!
I wanna play mahjong, go sentosa, sing ktv, go mind's cafe, chiong, and DRINK!!
So the most eng one better do ur job hor ... *wink*
Thursday, July 26, 2007
imm and reg jap 2
woke up early in the morning to collect my Taiwan spree clothes which took 3 months to come ... OMG! And another spree in May is still one the way. Taiwan spree always take so long to come lor ... Im so not going to order again ... arrgghh ...
After collecting the stuff, me and Jass went IMM's esprit outlet cos she wanna check out some belt. The things there are really much cheaper than other stores cos they sell mostly out of season clothing. But to me they still look relatively in fashion, so who ever interested can go check it out. Initially, I wanted to buy a white leather bag. The retail price was $89.90, but now its only selling at $49.90. So Im like super tempted lor! but Jass say its not nice, so in the end I only bought a belt with her, which cost only $6.90. Not a bad deal too! haha ...
In the evening, I met up with Weixiang to sign up for our Japanese elementary 2 class and after that had dinner with him and Harvey didi. We had Pepper lunch!! My favourite and WJ's hated food. Lucky he is not with us, if not i sure cant eat. Hahaha.
We were chatting about work and studies. WX's going to start school in NTU soon and Didi thinking about changing his course in NTU after he ORD from army. Then stories about success friends or schoolmates of theirs started pouring in.
"1 friend's internship pay is $1200 la.", "Another one was headhunted by a company and his starting pay is $4,500.", "1 pretty friend of WX is studying XXX science in NTU." blah blah blah ... And sitting beside me is 2 potential NTU engineering graduates ...
Suddenly I feel so small ... small ... small ...
yah ... So what if i am also a mass communication graduate ... my cert is just a piece of shit to me ... the best way to put it I bought it back with just $22K. Where do I stand among all these intelligent and young people with a bright future? Where Can I Stand??
Im not smart, my studies sucks, my designer's path is still just a dream, im not confident, im not outspoken, Im not good at anything and basically im just a good for nothing. If im pretty then ok la, maybe I can do some bimbotic job, but the worst is im not even up for that. And to think of that some people can even be pretty and smart at the same time *envy*
How can thay do that? Are they just born intelligent? Or do they work smart? How can they cope studies and life? Im just curious. yah I tried too but too no avil. I have learnt that hardwork does not equal result. No matter what i do, how hard i try, nothings seems to come out good. Maybe Im just not smart like what WJ says.
Hearing about people getting $5k a month is like a dream to me. When can i achieve that? 30 years time? Not even sure whether i can get a bloody job after I graduate from OS. How can i support my parents in the furture? Hai ... Im feeling so depress ... *cry*
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
finally updating again
oh yeah! im finally updating my blog ... i know its been a long time since i blog and cobwebs are building all over liao ... haha ...
Been busy, then lazy, then trying all means to forget that i have a blog ... yeah tts me ...
Just had a study break last week, but sadly didnt really have the chance to go play oso le ... stuck at home most of the time doing homework ... and eventually missing out a lot of stuff too ... cannot date ... cannot play ... cannot chiong ... so many cannot ...
Unlike WJ who is clearing his leave now ... playing all day lor ... going here going there ... so good ... going out til i duno where or who he going out oso ...
actually suppose to post pictures of brother's celebration de ... which is like 3 or 4 weeks ago but i haven even bluetooth the pictures to my comp lor ... wahahaha ... talking about being lazy ...
then just now i was playing with facebook with jassine ... keeping poking her bunny and petting her frog ... wahahaha ... so funny lor ... imagine our msn conversation ... "eh poke my bunny le" ... "send me a present ... i like the cow" ... haha ... so cute ... got chance u all must go play play ... hehe
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
communication problem
haven been seeing bi very much these few weeks ... but somehow rather than having tons to talk to each other due to the lack of meeting up, it seems that our conversation is getting more and more dry.
the topics we talked about everyday are always the same. And sometimes im just so tired that i dont feel like talking.
Of course i misses him and wants to see him as often as possible. But when communication comes into place I just wanna avoid it as much as i can.
just like what larlin wrote in her blog, communication is so vital in a r/s.
but y is it yet the most difficult le? hmmm ... *tired*
Monday, June 11, 2007
Ocean 13 sleep sleep
watched ocean 13 with xiao bi and maisy maisy mouse just now ...
was soooo tired ... that i fell asleep ... haha
after a gd long 15 mins, then realized that i cannot waste my money!!!
so i had to force my eyes open and just managed to caught the climax of the movie ... *phew*
these few days too many homework to do le la ... always not enuff time to sleep ...
then before that still went to do a game event at square 2 for m&m ...
not enuff sleep still have to run ... *peng* ... haha ... lucky me still fit enuff ... hehe
Ocean 13 is really funny ... Must watch!! but if wanna compare, i still think Ocean 11 is better ... smarter plot ... =)
Sunday, June 10, 2007
lose mahjong big time
just came home from a mahjong session from Mr Tony Chan's place.
It either my mahjong skills really sux or my luck is really down.
Cause for the past few hours, i won only a few times and the only time i win is those small small tais. And every time i have those big tais somebody else is bound to win!
arrgghhh ...
So anybody who wants to earn some extra money or have the kick of winning on the mahjong table ... feel free to find me! Im sure i can make you very happy ... haha ... arrrggghhh ....
Thursday, June 07, 2007
random
The Part of You That No One Sees |
 You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful. |
Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP) |
 Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving. |
How You Life Your Life |
 You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
Your Birthdate: October 12 |
 You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December |
unhappy
im not happy le ...
you know that kind of feeling whereby everything seems to go wrong ...
when laughter is hollow ...
smile is fake ...
mind is elsewhere ...
heart is cold ...
no idea when this mood suddenly creeps in ...
maybe its the time of the month again? haha
maybe its nearing Aug and the insecurity is coming back again?
maybe oh maybe ...
im just unhappy ... *sulks*
